I’m heartbroke; yet God provides for the soul and spirit.

My life in January 2010, seemed normal until my daughter was arrested on January 28. Two weeks prior, I was reading the word of God and came upon scripture that literally jumped off the pages and seemed to be ones that were unmistakably and undoubtedly to be memorized. I instantly copied Philippians 4:4-9. Those scriptures easily stuck, and for those two weeks I wondered why I felt that it was so important for me to not only learn, but to meditate on them. I knew through experience, scriptures that seem to have jumped off the pages before; instills a purpose and it will be used for some benefit, be it mine or someone else’s. The day came when my daughter was arrested. My husband and I were both upset about the whole ordeal. She had gotten in trouble with a boy she had supposedly fallen for. The following night, while lying in bed, I continued meditating on the scriptures until I went to sleep. I discovered hope and help in Jesus the night the understanding of scripture came to me. It was only a few nights after, while attempting to fall asleep, it hit me, “that’s it” I remember speaking it out loud, sharing with my husband. “I am to rejoice in the Lord always; and again He said to rejoice. I was to let my moderation be shown unto all men that the Lord is at hand. To be careful (anxious) for nothing but in everything by prayer and supplication, letting my request be made known unto God and the peace of God which passeth all understanding would keep my heart and mind through Christ Jesus. Finally brethren (me), I was to remember that “whatsoever things were true, whatsoever things were honest, whatsoever things were just, whatsoever things were pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report, if there be any virtue, (purity), if there be any praise, I was to think on these things”  For those things which I had both learned and received and had heard and seen in Paul, I was to do, that the God of peace was with me. It was all so clear now. God had been with me, preparing me before the upset, during the upset and is still with me. I was to recognize and grasp all (small and great) positive things. Hang on to them for it was what was going to get me through this fire. There were many more scriptures that came to me during the coming months. All which participated in the sharing of his love for me in knowing that he had not left me comfortless; he had come to me (John 14:18), and that he had not left me nor forsaken me (Hebrews 13:5). As for my daughter, she has now completed her two years and eight months. My husband and I continue to ask Father to keep her where she needs to be for her to be able to see HIM in his true form.

I am glad I have a personal relationship with Jesus today because I know that I am not alone. I am very thankful and continue to stay in his word in seeking his guidance and discernment in all things. For Hebrews 4:12 states that the word of God is quick, powerful, sharper than any two edged sword, piercing even the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, bone and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. If you want to see how God can work in your life, open your heart to his word and ask God for his wisdom and he can do the same for you.

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